Earlier today at work at a team meeting, we did an ice breaker where we shared what we would be doing if we weren’t in our current positions.
Immediately, my first thought was, work at a clinic doing mental health counseling hopefully with a therapy dog.
Then someone mentioned travel blogger and I thought how brave to share that out. I felt my own judgment coming through. Then I quieted that voice because it didn’t belong to me. I was taught to doubt and scoff at jobs that were up for interpretation and financially unstable. But as a person in the world striving to live a happy and fulfilled existence, I say do whatever energizes you. Although, even that thought is flawed. Even when you love what you do, it can also drain you.
Then, the colleague next to me shared out that she would probably be a full-time housewife tending to the needs of her two young kids aka her other full-time job. She laughed lightheartedly but I could only imagine the exhaustion and the never-ending list of things to do.
Then it was my turn to speak.
I’d want to be a housewife but without the kids. I’d be a writer tapping away on my laptop somewhere in a coffee shop at odd hours of the day. I’d also have a therapy dog.
Then my colleague who mentioned wanting to be travel blogger said “you can do both”.
You’re right. I totally could. I laughed knowing that none of this was a joke. And, as if on cue, my supervisor goes, you seem to have this planned out. Like you’ve been thinking about this.
Hours later, I’m still thinking about this ice breaker.
Everyone’s responses were so different.
We all had different aspirations at one point that we put aside for financial stability or some other compelling life reason.
And sometimes, if we’re lucky we feel empowered and connected enough to pursue those former goals.
And sometimes, we never get close enough.
Or, plot twist, sometimes we get to define how those goals look like to us.
Maybe I’ve lost you for being so abstract.
What I realized is, sure, I don’t get a paycheck every two weeks as a writer but I write. I have my own space on the internet where I get to share the inner workings of my mind with people I often have never met or seen before. That’s bonkers, in the best way possible.
As for the housewife piece, I’ve been there done that. And it really wasn’t at all what the Real Housewives ladies make it look like. Nor would I want all that drama. Actually, I’m lying. If Andy Cohen ever called, I wouldn’t say no.
And the therapy dog? That is something to look forward to because it is definitely happening. First, I need Esteban’s (my cat) permission.
In all seriousness, I just wanted to share where my mind went when someone encouraged me to think about where I could be right now. Instead of feeling regret or trapped in the past, I felt motivated to keep moving forward. I wholeheartedly believe that I am where I am now for a reason. And the number one reason if I am to be honest, is to pay off my student loans. And when that’s done and over with, who knows what’s next? I certainly have some ideas. But maybe I’m not as far off as I want to be.
Maybe you haven’t thought about it or maybe it hasn’t been on your mind lately but I want to encourage you to take a moment to ask yourself: what would I be doing if I wasn’t doing the work I am doing now? How far off am I from that? And, what’s ahead for me to take on?
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