A few days without wifi

It feels like I haven’t put up a new blog post in ages. It’s been 10 days to be exact. Before moving into my new apartment, I thought I’d give myself the weekend to move and then on Monday (Labor Day), I’ll be writing for the blog again. Sounded easy enough.

But then I started moving and realized I totally underestimated the amount of physical, mental, and emotional labor the whole experience demands. I was exhausted. I didn’t realize that I would need to mentally adjust to my new surroundings. We moved a few minutes away, but still my body was telling me to slow down and take it all in.

I was not comfortable with this forced slow down. We finally moved everything in on Saturday and had to wait till Thursday for wifi to be installed. Epitome of first world problems, I know. I wasn’t completely cutoff from ย the world wide web, but the access and ease was not the same as having it in my own space.

A first, I felt like I was in a bubble. I didn’t know what was going on in the world. I kept refreshing my feed and holding my phone closer to the door or window, and nothing worked. It felt like time just kept moving and I wasn’t moving with it. Has anyone ever felt this way?

Then, I started questioning myself. What am I doing? Why am I not working on blog posts? Uh, because you have no internet. But you could go to a cafe somewhere… But I had to wait for maintenance people to come paint our jacked up wall, which apparently takes 3 days. And they’re still not done…and never on time. I felt so helpless and uninspired. I realized I was criticizing myself for doing things I simply couldn’t do at the moment.

The criticism quickly turned into more negative self-talk. I’m not good enough, I’m not doing enough, I’ll never be successful, and etc… I expressed these feelings out loud and was really overwhelmed by them. It didn’t feel good at all. Instead of considering the circumstances at play, I judged myself.

I think the hardest part was feeling like I wasn’t being productive. Like I was just wasting precious time doing nothing. But, was I really doing nothing? Was I not taking care of myself and making my new space into a home? These things count too.

The turning point came when I finally forced myself to sweat it out in the gym. I didn’t do anything intense, but the time I spent in the gym really grounded me. It even made me feel better. Anyone who knows me will know I hate the gym. But even I can’t deny that endorphins really do make you happy. *Thanks, Elle Woods.* I felt optimistic and strong.

This experience reminded me that I am not my situation. My character, my abilities, and my future are not determined by temporary roadblocks. My self-worth is also not determined by such things. When I give myself the time to reflect and breathe, I slowly am reminded of why I write blog posts, what inspires me, and why I want to continue this journey.

Perhaps, this break was exactly what I needed. It didn’t feel good, but it did remind me of who I am and who I hope to be.


Outfit Details
Clicking the photos below will link you to the product

Yellow top: Lisa Says Gah (old) but this mustard yellow version is perfect for Fall.


Photo: Revolve.com

Black layering piece: Reformation (old) but similar version:


Photo: Reformation.com

Jeans: Evidnt via Shopbop

Flats: Repetto via Shopbop

Bag: Rebecca Minkoff (old) but this brown leather version is still available


Photo: Shopbop.com

Earrings: Catbird

Necklace: bridesmaid gift, similar version from Kate Spade via Shopbop


Photo: Shopbop.com


When was the last time you slowed down? What did you do and how did it feel? Would love to know!

Thanks for stopping by and I’ll see you in my next post.

Sophie ๐Ÿ™‚


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  • I’m glad you were able to slow down a bit, even if it was a little frustrating.

    The same thing happened to me when our Internet was busted for a few a weekend. I read TWO BOOKS in the span of two days. Crazy. But it felt pretty great to feel so productive in a different way. Maybe how you felt when you exercised. I never regret exercising or reading books! Meanwhile, nowadays when I’m plugged in constantly, finding the time to slow down and read books is a major “challenge”.

    • 2 books in 2 days? Sounds amazing! I have 2 library cards for Manhattan and Brooklyn, and I tell myself all the time that I need to start borrowing books and reading again but just the thought of scrolling through and looking for books (and waiting for them to become available) is less appealing than scrolling through articles on the web.

      It’s true, I never regret doing both either…interestingly enough giving myself the time to do either one of those things seem rather challenging these days.

      It’s crazy how being “unplugged” is almost like hiding in a cave away from the world…at least to me anyway. Even though at one point we would sign off our AIM instant messaging and go about the rest of our day. But now we can literally be signed on 24/7 even in our thoughts.