About two months back, I took myself seriously when I thought to myself “I should get back into yoga again.” Truth is, the last time I did yoga regularly was senior year of high school when it was literally for gym class. Since then I’ve fallen so far off the wagon that I avoid eye contact with my yoga mat. Out of sight, out of mind right? Nope.
I saw on Instagram that my friend, Suzana started doing a 30 day yoga challenge. Coincidentally, I was looking at the same one the day before. I saw this as a sign from the universe and told Suzana that I was going to join her on this challenge.
For a week straight I posted on Instastories a picture of me post-yoga to let Suzana and the world know that I was keeping up with the challenge. It seemed to be going great. But then I took a day off. Then it became a few days. Then I never mentioned the yoga challenge again. Except to Suzana. In case you’re wondering, she took days off too but jumped back in where she left off and has since completed the challenge.
As for me, it took me about two months to finish day 17. I currently have day 18 open in a new tab next to this current WordPress doc. And to be honest, I’m not quite sure it’ll be done today. Or tomorrow. And here’s why.
I learned that yoga isn’t the same as a quick cardio workout where you can literally just jump in. You have to be ready to give yourself the space to slow down. And these days I find myself completely distracted. If I’m not writing or posting/engaging on Instagram, I feel so unproductive. So much so that yoga takes a backseat because I see it as time not spent doing what I’m supposed to. And even when I do end up rolling out my yoga mat, I’m completely distracted and can’t focus on my breath.
I could list a whole bunch of other reasons, but the truth is I jumped in before I really asked myself why I was doing it. Did I really want to do yoga for 30 days straight? The answer is clearly “no.” I know now that my initial “I should get back into yoga again” was really me saying “I should probably sprinkle a bit of yoga into my life every now and then.” I mean, putting pressure on myself to do something that I didn’t truly want to commit to felt like a chore. And it made me want to do it less, which is no surprise.
So I failed, right? Well, yes and no. I failed the challenge but I didn’t fail in tuning in to what my body needs. And isn’t that what yoga stands for? I learned that I am most motivated to do yoga when I want to slow down. And these days I find myself wanting to keep moving. So instead, I find it more helpful to work through my anxious energy and stress with faster-paced workouts. And if you’re wondering what that might look like…it’s literally me dancing aka jumping around to the latest hits on Spotify until I get winded.
But everything works best in balance. So I’m going to set a new challenge for myself: to do yoga at least once a week. I will continue to do the exercises from the 30 day yoga challenge to build up my foundation. Who knows, maybe I’ll eventually do it more often but for now I am happy with where I am with my practice.
Have you tried anything like this? I would love to know what worked and what didn’t work for you. And if you have tips for staying active and focused, let me know! Thanks in advance.
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