For the first time in my life, I have given myself the opportunity to execute the ideas that have been tucked away in the deepest corners of my brain. It feels wonderful, exhilarating, terrifying, and discouraging all at the same time.
The biggest challenge that I have faced so far is feeling discouraged when an idea doesn’t mesh well with my current reality. My problem is wanting to already be 100 steps ahead when I am only beginning to understand the first step.
There are all these wonderful quotes about “the process” and “the journey,” that have helped me feel less guilty about giving myself the time to figure things out. An important part of that is the inevitable questioning of everything. Alongside the questioning, I also find myself wishing. Wishing and imagining that the universe will drop down what I need, Hunger Games style. Is it okay to let this all play out in my head? I think so.
I owe this one to life and grad school, but I have learned that whenever I ignore my own feelings, my experience becomes inauthentic. When I want things in my life to be linear, is also when a tangled mess appears. Right now, I am in that tangled mental mess and I am okay with it. I’m going to give myself the space today to comb through what I am thinking and feeling, acknowledge where I am, seek inspiration and plan out what I can do in the meantime.
What helps you when you’re feeling discouraged or uninspired?
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